Estranged
I am lonely
I am sad
I got to know a few new people
We became friends
At least that's what I thought
We ended up hurting each other
I suppose it is better like this
I am better of alone
I am on my own
My heart is
hurting
My tears are running down my cheeks
My soul is aching
I wish I was like you my lady
Strong powerful
You wouldn't take crap from others
You wouldn't cry of pain loneliness
You wouldn't wonder around in sleepless nights?
What you did wrong?
Why others always end up hurting you?
Why you are so weak so pathetic?
Why no one cares?
Why no one loves you no matter how you try
they don't wanna
be your friend.
I don't let anyone see my pain
See my hurt
How it hurts to not be accepted
How it breaks my heart that I have
No loveThe men I have known have all been
assholes
Why I can't I ever find love
I don't seem to deserve love happiness
I glare at others with hard black painted eyes
my red hair shines as I snarls at others. Keep them away
Make them run.
Protect the damaged one
Myself
Put on my mask of indifference
All weakness gone
I am complete ice queen.
Harsh cold barriers
No one and nothing can break it
I took my last emotions to build this
Shield against the world so no one
Can ever hurt me
Cause me pain
But inside these harsh walls of ice
I cry
I suffer
I feel pain and misery
I yearn for love
I yearn for the sun
Like a fading rose
That's been left in the winters cold
The sun love slowly melts the icicles
Around my heart
People say my
poems are trashy
That my darkness depresses them
What do they know?
Living in the light love enjoying life.
Not all of us are there
Some of us are trapped
In the eternal darkness
Where the sun never shines
Where there is no light
No hope no escape
I cry rivers but
no one sees
It feels like I have been crying
For eternity
I have been in the darkness
As long as I can remember
I have always been bullied
The laughingstock
The one the other kids picked at beated
And the bullying and abuse continued as I became
teenager and later adult.
I never fit in, I am odd, Strange, Aloof, I am
ill
All of the above seem to be enough to be
tormented by others
But I have had enough
No more will I be bullied into silence
No more will I be betrayed
Dumped like garbage
No more will others cause me to suffer
I see no reason
to carry on
As the pain aches within my soul
I take the knife slashes my wrists
The blood flows through my wrist and lay down
in a pool of my own blood and tears.
Waiting for death
to come
Waiting for the peace I never I got in life
My life is running out
No more pain
No more suffering
The soul flies up ready to leave
Body becoming still
The Goddess
watches me.
She takes me in Her arms
Instead of taking my life as I expected
She pushes the soul back into my body
She cradles me as cough up some blood
My heartbeat gets steady
I am breathing
I am crying in her arms as The Goddess speaks
You can lay down to die
And you won't be forced to suffer
Cry these endless nights
Or you can get up walk with me
And I will help you
Take care of you.
It will be harsh days as well as bright ones
There is so much for you to experience
There are still seeds of possibilities in you
my dear child.
As long as you live they will struggle to be
born.
It is all up to my dear girl
It just hurts so bad to be alone all the time
People betraying me leaving me
I have been so abused bullied all my life
Not the last 5 years.
No the worst was 10-20 years ago
I can't forgive and forget
I can't get over it.
People thinks should be over it by now
I know you been
left out and betrayed
I will care for you. Tell me everything I am
always around. I am closer to you than your own breath.
Okay thank you, my lady
I will give life another chance
With The Lady’s
help encouragement
I got the
strength I need to get on with my life
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